It’s easy to follow quarantine guidelines until your loved one is sick. You know you’re not supposed to travel due to the pandemic, but this is an emergency. Isn’t it?
Doubts creep in and you wonder if the Emergency Room is still open? Maybe I should call the doctor first. But they are so swamped you don’t receive a response. Your gut tells you to go to the hospital now, but COVID 19 slows your steps because your loved one is already high risk.
You sort through the facts to help make a decision. He didn’t wake up at his usual time. He answers a little when spoken to, but doesn’t open his eyes. He refuses to drink water or eat a banana.
Strange behavior sounds the alarm and the doctor is immediately called. No return call is equally distressing. So pleading to sit up begins. Emergency room is discussed and quickly dismissed. He’s not a fan of this suggestion. After all he just needs rest.
Not seeing an improvement in my husband’s condition, I decided Covid 19 Quarantine or not….we are going to the emergency room.
When we arrived at the ER, my husband couldn’t even say his name. The nurse wheeled him back and rushed orders to take scans.
The young doctor’s alarmed eyes betrayed his calm voice. I know the scan looks bad. He admits the uncertainty of whether it is brain inflammation or a tumor. Prepares me that surgery is a possibility.
I don’t even blink. I’ve heard this before. The first time I was paralyzed by terror. But I don’t need to be afraid. The Lord restored my husband before and He can do it again.
So instead of spiraling into fear, I pray. I ask my FB friends and family to pray too because The LORD responds to prayer. And well….I’m in a hurry!
Minutes after posting my request for prayer, friends shared my request with their friends and the prayer circle grew beyond the hospital walls. Together “friends of my friends” praised the LORD for what He had already done and honored the LORD by asking for his mercy. Although socially distant, simultaneously we lifted my husband up to the Lord.
For the eyes of the LORD roam throughout the earth to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is fully devoted to Him.2 Chronicles 16: 9 BSB
And in the seconds, minutes, hours, and days it took for the doctors to figure out their plan of action. I listened to my husband’s fumbling thought process. I watched his struggle to stand, much less walk. Even speaking took effort.
During these painful moments, I focused on what I’d learned since this brain cancer journey began in 2016.
I remember how my LORD has given me his helmet of salvation, his breastplate of righteousness, and his belt of truth. Feeling very much like a child drowning in my Daddy’s oversized work boots, I also feel His closeness.
I remember how My LORD had been compassionate and gracious to me after his brain surgery, seizures, proton radiation, and even chemo complications.
Closing my eyes helps to focus on the LORD. One of my favorite verses is how the LORD revealed himself to Moses and subsequently to us through his words:
Then the LORD passed in front of Moses and called out: “The LORD, the LORD God, is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in loving devotion and truth, maintaining loving devotion to a thousand generations, forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin.Exodus 34:6 BSB
My Lord is compassionate and gracious. He loves me, my husband, and my sons. This verse prompts me to pray for my husband’s spiritual healing as fervently as I pray for his physical healing.
Brain surgery is not too hard for the LORD. He can skillfully move the hands of the doctor and impart wisdom to even a young man fresh out of medical school. And despite how terrible the report is from the medical team, the LORD can heal and restore who he chooses even without surgery.
I am the LORD, the God of all people. Nothing is too difficult for me.”Jeremiah 32:27 GNT
I have learned not to be afraid, but to stand firm and wait upon the LORD to finish his work. The waiting is hard, but I love how the LORD invites us into what he is doing.
The Lord invites us to join him by praying. Wherever you are, you can talk to Him. It doesn’t matter if you pray in a chair beside a hospital bed for several days or from home for the first time. The Lord hears you.
Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the LORD’s salvation, which He will accomplish for you todayExodus 14:14 BSB
Little by little my eyes opened to see what the LORD is doing even before the doctors realized. Pointing out how he can move his leg when just the day before he couldn’t lift it, raised skeptical eyebrows.
But the next day the physical therapy staff returned and agreed, “This is amazing, he has already improved. He wasn’t able to lift his leg yesterday.”
Talk of surgery subsided and a plan to go home begun. In the seconds, minutes, hours, days, and weeks ahead as we wait to see what the LORD will continue to do in my husband’s life. I smile because the Lord is my shepherd and I have all that I need.
The LORD is my shepherd, I have all that I need.Psalm 23:1
Promises to Remember when a Loved One is Hospitalized
- For the eyes of the LORD roam throughout the earth to show Himself strong on behalf of those whose heart is fully devoted to Him. 2 Chronicles 16: 9 BSB
- “Then the LORD passed in front of Moses and called out: “The LORD, the LORD God, is compassionate and gracious, slow to anger, abounding in loving devotion and truth, maintaining loving devotion to a thousand generations, forgiving iniquity, transgression, and sin.” Exodus 34:6
- “I am the LORD, the God of all people. Nothing is too difficult for me.” Jeremiah 32:27 GNT
- “Do not be afraid. Stand firm and you will see the LORD’s salvation, which He will accomplish for you today;” Exodus 14:14 BSB
- The LORD is my shepherd; I have all that I need. Psalm 23:1
May I Pray For You?
Heavenly Father, Thank you for moving over the nations of our world looking for those whose hearts are devoted to you and showing your strength to them. Lord you are compassionate and gracious. You are revealing yourself to the world and inviting us all to join together in prayer. To believe that you are the LORD, the God of all people. To believe that nothing is too difficult for you. May we not be afraid, and not fall into despair, but stand firm and watch to see what you will do. For your salvation will be accomplished. You are our shepherd and we have all that we need. In Jesus name, we thank you. Amen.
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